Hi Everyone,
What does it means by the new chapter of my life?? is it the character change??or appearance that change?? Well for me I guess change in almost every aspect of my life. why is that?? Let me share why;
Well, all of us know right sometimes our day is bad & sometimes our day is good & sometimes also our day can be very joyful & sometimes our day can be over sorrow @ stress @ depress.
So which of the situation referring to my new chapter of life?? I’m sure most of you will think a good one which refer to the word “New Chapter” right?? Well, it’s a No…My situation is from sad to happy = New Chapter
Why Sad to Happy?? Here goes my story; I was a girl with full of ambition in seeking adventure & get to know the world that god created for us. It was beautiful world but inside those beautiful world full of Jealousy, double face, sweet talker, hatred, ego, greedy, destroyer & a lot more. Still the love, caring, understanding, tolerate, sharing, listening of people also have among each other.
Guess what i met people with the attitude of jealousy, double face, ego, greedy, sweet talker that manage to destroy my life, my hope, my passion in few second which in my point of view if I’m not strong enough probably had killed my self for being such a stupid girl who did not think with who I should friend with.
During this time, I really feel lost & don’t know to who I should talk with; & during this time also I feel I want to hide my self, to run away & just disappeared but thinks doesn’t work like that. Almost every night I cry & ask myself why am I so stupid.
I thought I will be lost forever but it doesn’t work like that as well, I manage to find my way out from all the miserable life; but how?? well, last time I used to active in church as a choir member, youth & CCR as well as my family & friends who always stand beside me. I learnt a lot before I step out to get to know the world.
I close my eyes, then pray to god ask for forgiveness & surrender all the pain, the burden to him. Then I pray to ask for peacefulness, descendent on what should I do with my life, & wisdom in everything I do so I’m able to stand strong & never give up. During the prayer I remember a reading from the holy bible say; ‘To follow me, you must leave everything behind’, To follow God, you must carry your cross & follow me’, I and God are one, no one can come to God except through me.’
After finish prayer, I feel so peaceful in & out especially the word of god tells me that to follow him we must carry our cross means not carry real cross but the cross within ourselves that involve in our physical & spiritual daily routine which is the pain, the shame, the burden & etc. that we face everyday. Besides that learn to forgive, be grateful, to love everyone around us, be wise in everything we do & most important never forget to pray.
From that moment I know he’ll never forget us especially when we in trouble. so the next day I decided to pursue my ambition & search for a great guy that meant to be with me. Few months after that, I feel so grateful that I able to work & get busy again + I did found the person who is truly accept me for who I am & guess what, we already Engage!! ^-^ Next Year is the Big day if no delay / problem, Finger Cross heee
I hope & always pray I will still & forever doing great & never give up. Thank you everyone for willing to read. Cheers & God Bless XoXo ^_^
